a lifeache

could most probably be described as a constant feeling of aggravation that haunts your mind day and night. i have such a lifeache. it often comes in the form of a headache, but its rooted from LIFE. LIFE IS RIDICULOUS. my life is ridiculous. im sitting here in art pondering about my existence. not in a, i should die way, but in a, what is my purpse way. why am i even here? both in existence and in my art class. i cant seem to put my finger on the reason for my existence other than, because my mom got pregnant. im not particularly special or living for something. im basically living to take up space. idont contribute much, i dont care about much, and i dont accomplishbmuch. other than to my few friendsand family i dont even matter very much. it is nearing 1130 and my day has already topped its normal ridiculousness its absurd. i thought my birthday coming up would bring great thiings with it but so far its only brought misery. misery sure does love company so i guess i should keep to myself for a little while. i have a headache i wish ididnt miss 7th pd so much so i could just go home and pop some tylenols. this sucks. OH WOE IS ME -_-