this is fact not fiction

well, wow.

the time is currently 11:25pm.
it is POURING, and i am watching it out of my bedroom window, listening to Death Cab and just pondering.
i'm scared.
i havent really felt like this in a while. i am actually happy, and im scared of losing it. things have been super chaotic but so far, smooth sailing. these last few days have been really nice and im so relieved. seeing lily allen last night was incredible.
today consisted of,
school.
egg white omelette.
evan almighty.
white rain.
sum hoopz.
spaghetti & meatballs by "crazy cathy billy the faggots mom".
chatz.
now some relaxing.

nobody seems to be very thrilled with me these days, but quite honestly i dont care. i am always so concerned with satisfying everyone around me, and its just not for me anymore. im doing what i want to do, for ME, and ill do it happily. I did the right thing.


if theres noone beside you when your soul embarks, then i'll follow you into the dark.
oh death cab i wish you were coming back to ny :(