it hasnt occurred to me how intimidated i am by the idea of college. i feel like ive gotten so used to telling everyone and talking about where im going that i hadnt thought much into it. so heres a blog topic: i am scared of college.
i have been really excited about it, and dont get me wrong, i am, but i am leaving so much behind. doesnt really seem like a big deal to be away from home, but i think about how long months can be, and think how i wont be seeing my family for months. that scares me. ive never had that kind of independence. im scared. im scared of leaving the people and things i love. i have never realized what an impact every thing and person has made in my life and am intimidated by the thought of losing them or being separated from them. im going to miss my best friends so much, and im afraid of what ill do when im sad. granted i will make new friends, but none of them will KNOW me, like know how to comfort me. nobody will be able to remind me of good times or bring me my favorite stuff to cheer me up. i cant just call one of my friends and say hey come over im bummed. nobody will be there. i wont be able to do my favorite things, ill have to find new ones. this is really overwhelming im getting myself upset.
i know im ready, but i just dont feel ready.
there are really important people to me that im going to miss, and the thought of not having enough time left scares me. im not ready to let go of my life. i like the way things are going.
i am obviously freaking out.
oyyy :'(
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